I know, I know--blogging should occur on a much more regular basis but just like millions of others, for me, the period between Thanksgiving and year's end just seems to fly. Between personal things and school things, life just doesn't give up moving and writing is usually the thing that makes the bottom of the list. I guess that is why my memoirs will not ever make it into print--ha! I am looking forward to the new year with reservations. My personal life has many ups going right now but they will ultimately involve changes in my professional life and I am nervous aobut those types of changes. Teachers typically do not handle change well. Witness the two or three teachers in every school who, when they retire, have to throw out at least two trashcarts full of old memos and other accumulated materials. I will be the same as I have stuff that is in drawers I inherited from my predecessor that I have not made an effort to remove. Yes, I am strongly considering retiring at the end of the year. It will be "early" retirement for me which will mean that I will not draw quite as much money as I would if I taught for four more years but I will be alive to see it. Teaching has lost most of its appeal for me over the past two years. Instead of waking up excited at the prospect of what the day will bring, I find myself dreading what awaits when I walk in the door. More paperwork, more irritated administrators, more trying to get students to care about their grades--it just seems to have gotten more futile over this period of time. Add to that, a desire to have a life again with someone who enjoys being around me for me and the decision pretty much makes itself. I still believe that I am good at what I do but it is time for me to move on and let those who have more energy and more fervor take over. Sad but true and I don't want to become like other teachers in my building who could retire and stay on because they have nothing else going for them. Those are the ones who need to leave; the ones who people joke about when they remember school; I don't need that kind of life. So I will continue posting to let others know how it feels to move on as we all must. I hope that everyone has had a good holiday season and looks forward to whatever the new year holds.